Update: First Steps!


Hey there, enaid!

I've been tired but restless lately...
(Strange combination, I know)
I want to do things and take those first steps to a 'normal' life again (whatever normal is), but I still worry about it. A lot.
Bored, restless and capable, but also tired and scared of taking those steps.
But, despite that, I finally did something!
Courtesy of a few amazing friends of mine, a new, local theatre group had been created for young people, targeting some of the most trying issues for young people today, and I was honoured to be invited into this new family after attending their workshop audition, and I'm so excited to get started on the project!
Energy is a bit on the low side today, as expected, but I'm bouncing back a lot quicker!
And soon, I don't think there will be any energetic or emotional setbacks to counter each new step I take.
It may not seem like much to the outside eye, but consider this:
The past year and a half has been an extremely difficult one, the kind of difficult that no one can know unless you've been there for yourself, and I've been estranged from life for a long time while I've been battling my own mind and very nearly losing.
But I survived. And I'm still doing so.
This was my first re-connection with life in over a year, and I'm still nervous,
but nowhere near as nervous as I would have been a few months ago, and for that, I am so thankful.
Things have progressed so much, and it's only getting better! Even if I have to deal with the occasional setback every now and then.
Hang in there.
Stick with it.
It's okay.


Much love, and many cwtches,

IvyMoon xxx



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